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Hi! I'm Val. Well, um.. I juz an ordinary gal dat always feeling numb to the vacancy of my own humanity.^_^
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11 March, 2007
Being Left Behind
Can anyone here allow me to recoup what I've lost for these days? This seemed to be perpetually gone, for me. This is really getting me into tears..You guys dyed hair, worked, studied, coupled, got car licence, etc. The feeling getting home is very terrible, being far apart of the world. How is it like, to stay away from friends, where the others had done something awesome where as you are being left behind?
I don't want to go to school tomorrow.. I don't want to face the crowd..
posted by -Val- on Sunday, March 11, 2007
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30 December, 2006
A break for a hedge
She was emaciatedAs the endless rain continues to fall
Inwardly hits her like the sharpest dart
Angst and afraid
Gingerly she was packing
With tears streaming down her face
When the day has come to take off training wheels
To live life without a safety net
Drifted into the horizon
She stood at the doorstep
Never looking back at her home
With sorrowful and glistening eyes
Seeking for omen
Stained with bitter tears
Bracing herself against the falling steps
Being amateurish for the godforsaken place
Solving the conundrum
Anguishing the alienation
For the mirth and goods lay ahead
posted by -Val- on Saturday, December 30, 2006
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19 December, 2006
Choices
The world, of oursFull of threats and upheaval
Everyone seems to be engrossed
Keeping the pace with the rat race
It aint a new vigor for us
But a question of acquisition
A question that'd frantically intimidating
How I wish it were scripted or foretold
Choice
I have a few of them
And yet my entire life to risk
I'd have to face the consequences
Initially I thought I could just pick a coin
For a throw that'd make a difference
Subsequently I'm going to wring my neck
I want to fly
I want to soar into the sky
I want to be something bizarre
Something different from the others
Here I am, again
Squandering my life
Still standing, contemplating..
posted by -Val- on Tuesday, December 19, 2006
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17 December, 2006
Blogger or Reader?
This is, well umm..another draft. Quite sometime already being left behind in the draft corner. I wrote this a few months ago after I read someone's blog.-------------------
Does anyone actually read his/her own posts?
Does anyone had headache whether should post the entry they had typed?
Do you think thrice before you post something?
When we blog, people read our mind and we are likely manipulating the readers. When we read, as a reader, we are not bothering that we are actually part of the story. We are just, anonymous. Even though something is obviously not right, but then we do not speak out. We have no right to do that because we are just a pass-by-er. When we blog, we are the protagonist and free to talk about anything. Eventually we don't realize that we are hurting others' feelings.
This is my blog and I have my right to blog anything I'd want.
True. But how would you feel when you are not yourself but you are actually a reader reading your own blog?
Throughout the year, I've learnt a lesson through blogging that actually developed myself to a different person. I'm not a great blogger as the others. This is not about blogging but a wisdom that we should all apply in our daily hectic life.
When we talk/blog, we are the protagonist. However, we must not forget that listeners/readers do exist. We should not ever neglect their existence because they have feelings too, just like anyone of us.
posted by -Val- on Sunday, December 17, 2006
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15 December, 2006
Six Sense or Sensitive?
Gals have six sense. Or, are they just being too sensitive?Hey I have six sense! Or maybe I'm just too sensitive? Oops! I mean very sensitive. I'd have a bad feeling about something that could happen, sometime. I can feel the sincerity about a person. You know, people with good and bad intentions.
Have you ever curb your cries and anger even though you are deeply and madly hurt? I am a bad person. I neglected people and always being heartless. I felt really bad for what I did. Eventually I cried for being a nice person. (Okay, I cannot deny this)
Sometime things may look nice to us, but not for the others. Everyone is different. We love what we love but the others don't. We are nice, but the others don't think so. Our words are cunning and likely razorblades but we don't realize.
Every human being lives as an observer. We'd observe all the happenings around us. Everything happens for a reason. Reasons that we couldn't foresee. That's the answer to our queries. Curbing our anger or cries will not help, in any way. Listen to the rhythm of our life, you'll find that it's a magnificent art.
Or, perhaps the so-called SIX SENSE is just a metaphor.
Gals are too-over-sensitive right?
posted by -Val- on Friday, December 15, 2006
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06 December, 2006
MERDEKA~!!
Pada saat yang bersejarah ini, calon WL071A070 telah tamat menduduki peperiksan SPM!Let's acclaim MERDEKA, shall we?
Should be feeling great right now but I'm feeling kinda sad because this is going to put a full stop towards my secondary schooling life, and my tuition stuffs. I've struggled for two years just for this moment that will forever vividly emblazoned in my life!
I've tried my best. I've blurted out everything out of my mind, now I'm going to leave it to the God. The most important is not about the TIPS or RESULTS. The main key is about the process. Study groups, discussions, the process of learning is the greatest of all!
Btw, I'm not a drudge. I'm just an ordinary student that typically loves to play. No play makes a dull life you know! If there were no enjoyment, it would be a monotonous journey.
Gatherings, decisions, my blogging drafts! Aduh, pening kepala!
posted by -Val- on Wednesday, December 06, 2006
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04 December, 2006
The right one to arrive
Yea. Finally, the real one to arrive at my doorstep. I received my surat perintah and I'm so blur as I approach the letters. There are so many forms. Let me cite some of them..1. Surat Pemberitahuan Peserta (Yea, thx for the inform, lolx)
2. Buku Rujukan (a.k.a THE RULES)
3. Tiket Bas (Got air-corn ar?)
4. Borang Penangguhan (Can I recycle it?)
5. Borang Pemeriksaan Kesihatan (Not so sure after joining NS)
6. Borang Pendaftaran Peserta (Do I have a choice?)
7. Surat Kebenaran Pengendalian Senjata M-16 (Cool huh? Hey don pray pray with Val!)
Right. What should I do with all these stuffs?
posted by -Val- on Monday, December 04, 2006
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