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Hi! I'm Val. Well, um..
I juz an ordinary gal dat always feeling numb to the vacancy of my own humanity.^_^
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29 July, 2006
Seminar
Baktiar: Eh Wan, kau tak pegi private BI semalam ke?
Me: Harr..Kita tak pegi. Kenape?
Baktiar: Ohh! patutlah kelas macam senyap aje..
Me: Ehh!! Ape maksud kau..korang ni jahat lerr..
Baktiar: Tak delah, biasa kan kau kecoh dalam kelas.
Me: ...!!! memang kita ni kecoh..kenape? rindu kita ke? (Sombong)
Baktiar: Cherr, kita tak cakap pun.
Tiqa: Alerr Baktiar, Wan ni memang kecoh..kalau dia tiada..tak best tau?!
Me: *-Pss-* Eh Tiqa, saya kecoh dalam kelas ke?
Tiqa: Awk skrg baru tahu ke? Cherr...
That guy i wanna kick him lol. So bad larr he..he said that i'm kecoh. Hahaa! Um..I'm a kecoh person..wahahaha. I can be a quiet gal in class or i can be a kecoh person, like they said. I dun hav any school mate from my school in tuition centre. There are only a few chinese there, majority are malays.
Thank God, i could fit into their trend. I have my best buddies there, Tiqa and Fatin. I shared everything, well almost everything with them. All the teachers doubting whether we are from the same school. Hey I dun like people criticizing Malays. I mean, what's wrong with them?? Actualy i think they have something that we Chinese doesn't have. Something came from the within. Here's what they told me:
" Sebenarnya, kan best dapat kawan macam Wan. Memang rasa best tau." Geez guys i love u all too. Sobzz
Okay back to the topic. Today we had seminar at UIA. It was so fun!! We had a great time there. So happy!! The teachers were so cool and we love them! I heard that tomorrow we will have a session with Sir Venn. Yipee! For Maths/Add Maths,the teachers i admire the most are Sir Govind, Sir How and Sir Venn. Okay let me tell u a joke..
Once upon a time, 5 insane person were sent to Tanjung Rambutan. They were treaten by an insane doctor. One day the doctor gave them a test. He brought them to a swimming pool WITHOUT WATER and the test is about what they will do about the swimming pool. 4 of them jumped into the pool naked. ( Insane people mar!! ) There stood the remain only one. (Clever right?) The doc asked him:"Why don't u jump?"
The person answered him:" Dun wan larr, the water so cold "
Hahaa..i couldn't stop laughing with the silly joke. Actually about the seminar, i'm kinda worry about my English. Hey dun scold me for being stupid, seriously. My english is terrible i tell ya. My English, kantoi! People always praise about my English but i dun feel like i deserving all this. The teacher in the seminar said that if u can score about XX marks then u are damn good in english. (OH GOD!) Hey sir, i'm definitely not the one. I'm trying to improve my english..
Hey..look at my blog. The tenses.This is a place where i crap all my thoughts. I know i made a lot of grammar mistakes. Don't tell teachers about my blog. -Shh- If not arr, they will penalize me. Haha..
Hey..please help me with my english. Please feel free to correct me or give comment about my English. Thanxx, love ya all always.
posted by -Val- on Saturday, July 29, 2006
Be Positive
Heart flies into distant skies
Glimpsing a rainbow
Colorful and captivating
Pessimistic
Tendencies to be negative
Darkness upon the room
Disappear and re-appear
In a fraction of moment
Positive thoughts
Helps us look ahead of time
If we rekindle hope our thoughts
It could uplift our spirit
Bring brightness into our lives
There's no need to frown
Keeping trace of faith
With our vulnerable hopes
It may open up many doors
Where peace dwells with solace
posted by -Val- on Saturday, July 29, 2006
28 July, 2006
Cheers!
Pn Suzana : Wan, esok kita nak bincang tentang Keburukan & Kebaikan PLKN. Okie?
Me: Alerr cikgu, ade keburukan ke?
Pn Suzana: Tak delah..ada pun sikit aje, mana tau keluar kan?
Me: Cikgu beritau kebaikan shj, keburukan tak naklah..
Pn Suzana: Amboi..!! Wan ni..
Fatin: Eh, korang jahat tau..kita tak dapat pun..
Me & Tiqa : Alarr pergilah memohon. Padan muka..hahaa!!
Sorry again about that conversation. Bahasa Rojak konon. Hehe..btw PLKN means National Service. It has been some days after the news. I'm okay already, i'm sure everyone too.
My bro asked confirmation from my mum twice as if he couldn't belive what he saw. He was kinda surpirse that i didn't act "wierdly" about the NS. Hey bro, u shud be happy rite? Ur annoying sista will be gone for 3 months. Hey bro dun tell me u miss me... *Cherr*
Anyway i'll miss everyone, including u my "dear" bro!
Instead of weeping when a tragedy occurs in a songbird's life, it sings away its grief. Everything happens for a reason. We don't know what lay ahead us, the only way to find out is to set forth down our path. God has handpicked us for some reasons.
Reasons that we couldn't foresee.
posted by -Val- on Friday, July 28, 2006
24 July, 2006
Dun cry gal..
What on earth is going on? Why don't these tears stop..I've been crying since i'm back home. I was so surprise when i found out that most of my classmate, those "unlucky" ones did make to the NS.
Hey guys, it tears me up inside again u know. Since a few days ago I'm kinda okay already..i'm starting to think positve. But now, with the "congratz" here and there...here i am. Back to the zero. I tried everything..almost everything. It just couldn't stop.
Actually I'm so nervous and excited about NS, after thinking positive. But everyone take NS as a freaky stuff. When u were chosen, they will be like..WOW!! Another lucky people will go to the freaky place. Everyone is so glad that theirselves were not chosen. Cheering and laughing around. Hey..did u all know how we the "lucky" ones feel?
*Choked* Okay gal, dun cry. I dun think anyone will understand how i feel just like what i crap in this post. Sorry guys for reading this post that i crap. Haha..it's okay. Thanx for reading..i appreciate it. Love ya all alwayx.
VaL, Be a tough gal !!
posted by -Val- on Monday, July 24, 2006
22 July, 2006
National Service
Light dimming and flicking unexpected
The night is so cold and lonely
Under the radar, they can't find evidence
to why it was I that God chose.
Stumbling down my chosen path
I'm learning to fly and be a strong gal
I'll persevere
I'll continue walking, hoping
We are given the strength and
Ability to endure
National Service
Granted the grace to pursue
Piety and persistent purity
Full of hugs and laughter
Filled with sparkles and twirls
A dream comes true
No one to blame or sue
God knows all, hears all, and sees all
It's not a punishment of any kind
There is no one's fault
It was what he had planned us
A better way of which he sought
Lets all hold hands and make amends
With no despair
Together we make this world a better place
posted by -Val- on Saturday, July 22, 2006
A good for nothing news
Congratz VaL! Cheers! Here's what u could do at NS..
- Eat plain rice, since u can't even taste spicy food -
- Wake up early, not bad 'eh? -
- Marching..diet. Diet! -
- More exercise, more diet! -
- Falling into the mud..smells so good!! -
- No meeting frenzz.. -
- Cry every night cuz miss family and frenz -
- U'll become like a charcoal when u return -
- Get myself being murdered there..cool rite? -
- I could hold M16 in my arms..wahahaha. Jealous? -
Gud rite? I'm thinking positive now..see. Geez at least i could diet rite? I can stil meet new frenz..or maybe i'll suffer there. Dunno why..i couldn't stop crying..enuff! Don't cry. Think of the bright side...they will always be a place for suffering and recovering.
I asked my senior about the details about NS. Dun cry, think positive gal. For u'll never regret going there. Just once. Once in your entire lifetime journal. I think i'll have "blog break" next year..but i'll come back with good post. I promise.
Don't cry because u're in
Smile because u're the lucky one
posted by -Val- on Saturday, July 22, 2006
NS ruined everything
I was blogging after came home from tution to have dinner before the next class. I was so happi today so i decied to post something in the blog. While doing so, i saw one of my friend's blog.
"I'm the lucky one. (for god sake) I can have the chance to hold a M16 in my arms"
Okay..something is not quite right with my friend today. It must be NS!! NS!! I checked the website a.s.a.p guess what i saw..
KAD PENGENALAN: 89xxxxx
NAMA: LEE YIN WAN
NEGERI: SELANGOR
I was no more in the mood in blogging anymore. After having dinner i went tuition. I was about to cry when teacher mentioned something about NS. Okok..dun cry. Come back home and hug ur lil pillow. After came home i phoned some of my frenz. Some, the "unlucky" ones are free from the NS thing. Congratz guys!
I never hate NS. I kinda like them. But not 3 months lor, just one month enough already. I hav a lot of things to do in my to-do list after SPM. I want to compose songs, write lots of poems, hanging out wit frenz, etc.
NS is not in my list, not marching, not sharing bath tub, not waking up early, not falling into the mud, etc.
Okay, u'll say "Think of the Bright Side". Think positive rite? Unfortunately, i'm a "minor-chorded" person. I know it will be fun and i'll not regret going there. But..3 months?! *sigh* Maybe i'll just accept my fate..blaming the goverment, blaming my birth date won't help anything. Cheers!
I'm really down. *choked*
posted by -Val- on Saturday, July 22, 2006
20 July, 2006
Leaving a msg..
Party is over. Everything back to normal again. I met my juniors today. We were told to leave a msg for our farewell booklet. Haiya..write what ohh?? * HEADACHE *
I'm not in any mood to write anything lorr..hiazz. Um..no inspiration. 'Uh how am i going to finish this msg..need help. Hiazz..how lerr? I dunno what to write..this is the best i could write for now. Outta inspiration..sorry guys.
Times has flown by
Piles of books brought us together as a team
Through the changing trends
Along with the bickering, fights and gossips
Deep dwon inside our memory
There will be a special place
In which we store the memories we shared
Hiazz..how? Terrible one..really sorry.
I'll write of another one if i got time..for now, homeworks!!
(Never ending homeworks...)
posted by -Val- on Thursday, July 20, 2006
19 July, 2006
My big day
I was awaken by my dad's "HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!" this morning. Yesterday my frenz counted down for me..so happi. But that time i already very sleepy ledi..i was totally awaked after receiving a msg from a friend of me. A msg with a voice-recorded birthdae song. So funny lorr..can join "One In A Million" u know? That's so sweet..
As i switched on my hp after came home..*BEEP BEEP*. A few seconds later another *BEEP BEEP*. I received lotz of sms wishing me a happi birthdae..very happi. I receive some presents from my friends. I like them...!! Thanx u guys..i love them all.
Birthday is not all about presents rite? Truthfulness and sincerity is the most important horr? Actually u guys remembered my bday i'm realli happi ledi..no need to put so much effort on the presents. A simple sms is enuff ledi. *sniff sniff* Thx for everything..love ya all.
To all my frenz..thanx!! I'm really happi today!! *Touched* Um..dunno what to say lerr..thanx for remembering my bday and for the blessings.
Today..maybe dun hav celebrate lor. Dunno lerr,see how lor. Maybe wit family lorr..my mum bought cake from Secret Recipe. *Sigh* On diet larr..but one year once..no harm right?
Happi Birthdae VaL~!!
posted by -Val- on Wednesday, July 19, 2006
Happi Birthdae
A special day to taste chocolates and cream
Candlelights flicked like the stars
A day full of happiness, hopefulness, no tears
With all the wonders in this beautiful world
Everyone remembering
The day you were born
As if it occurred yesterday
A little girl was brought to this world
The road becomes harder
Life becomes clearer
As you lived another year
You'll be counting more numbers
Years and years after today
You begin to self discover
and pull yourself out of cover
You've grown up
From the problems you have encountered
Happiness will come this year
Life would continue to be nice to u
with all its compassion and all its hues
Just want this one wish
To exchange all the sadness
For ultimate happiness
posted by -Val- on Wednesday, July 19, 2006
16 July, 2006
Dear friends..
Human beings are social creatures. They strive for companionship with others. Almost everyone has one, and almost everyone is one. There's something about a true friend that cannot be duplicated. Everyone has their own definition of what their own true friend is like and what an impact he/she has made in their life. Most of those we call.."friends" are just merely acquaintances. People whom we met at school, people who we met at tuition centre, people who just drop to say "hi"..etc
Someone asked me, "How many friends do you have?" To be honest, i don't have the answer. Do you? Did u really count how many friends u have? I mean..every single one.
But..izzit really important to have many friends? What is the use when u have plenty but none of them really understand u and concern about u? I have seen people with dozens of friends. I dunno lerr, but for me i think i don't need thousands or millions of them. Just a few true ones..it's enough.
We need friends that really understand our soul and help us when we are down, turn us frown upside-down, and make us feel better about ourselves. A true friend is a title held for the few and privileged. The term cannot be thrown around loosely. Not just anyone can be called your true friend. They are people who help you be more yourself.
To all my friends, thanks for being a friend of mine. I've promised that i'd write a poem about u guys. Sure i will..but not now..for now, just a simple post okay? I'll write one, i promise.
posted by -Val- on Sunday, July 16, 2006
13 July, 2006
Another bad day
It's just another day
Just another lie
Just another bad day
I'm worn and fading away
Stained with bitter tears
Trying to get out of this creepy place
This world is beginning to break
Its hard to live with the pain and heart ache
I'm running out of inspiration
Nobody seems to notice my desperations
I'm rotting away with regressed
I'm tired of being a good girl
Each one of us has the power
To make others feel better or worse
Making others feel better
Is much more fun than making others feel worse
You don't need to have a college degree to serve
You only need a heard full of grace
A soul generated by love
It's just a bad day
Drowning in the river of sour tears
Lonesome and content with fears
posted by -Val- on Thursday, July 13, 2006
12 July, 2006
Something missing?
If u think that something is missing in my blog..*BINGO* I've deleted my previous post. Err, just forget about it. Pls don't mention this to anyone..i don't wanna hurt anyone's feeling.
Tell me, honestly. Am i wrong?? If someone treats u like this, what would u do? We just don't realise what we've done. We keep on moving forward although the others struggling right behind us. We don't see them don't we? I did not refer it to anyone but this is how i felt. I don't mean to be rude but i can't take it anymore. (Meanwhile i feel sad too, i think that i'm a lame person.)
The little demon on my right shoulder said : "U're right, u can't be too soft-hearted. For this kind of person, no need to sympathy de lar."
The little angel on my left shoulder said : "Oh my, how could u treat people like this? Even though people treats u bad but u must learn how to be a big girl."
=.='ll God...am i a bad girl?
posted by -Val- on Wednesday, July 12, 2006
07 July, 2006
Options in hand
Both my parent let me to decide. Um..whether go for the surgery or not. I went to the hospital and i knew that it's really a "bloody-hell" surgery. And kinda risky too...
U think i'm a brave girl? Haha..coz the docs say so. My mum said that if i really want to have this surgery, it's okay and they will take care of me. It is a big surgery..unlike the one i had in GH. After hearing the doc's word i was totally stunned.
My options. What if i take the wrong step? What if the surgery did not sucess? It's like a decison between life and dead. Now i'm the blurr person in the poem "The Road Not Taken" by Robert Frost.
I'm standing in the middle of the road, i only have 2 ways to go. Either left or right. How do i know, which way i turn would be the right way? How do i know, that once i had set my way down the road and i will lost? And perhaps one day in the future i will regret for my choices.
I don't know izzit going to be a sunny day or stormy day for me. But i'll always bring along an umbrella, just in case. My decision, it will make a difference in my life. I'll make my decision after SPM. For now, study and prepare for SPM. Wish me luck ya..^.^
posted by -Val- on Friday, July 07, 2006
03 July, 2006
My name again..sigh!
It's time again, getting busy preparing for the Bulan Pusat Sumber. Of coz for us, we are officially retired. Hehee..I remembered last year's BPS. GOd it was terrible..if anyone remember anything about it. I was the stupid "guy" acting on the stage.
I was the unlucky one chosen becoz my hair was the long, last year. Sigh, but we did enjoy ourselves a lot. Pn CPC went mad that day and she said NO MORE DRAMA FOR BPS ANYMORE FROM NOW ON!! I feel so sad..i scacrificed the most all the time. Crying in the stage, jumping on the stage like silly fellow, acting like a begger. Ok ok..just don't think about it. Let's forget about it, that was the worst performance i ever had in my whole life.
Today my form one junior came to me and asked me politely..(they are having orientation now and they need to get every senior's signature and to know us well.)
Junior : Jie Jie arr, can u help me to sign?
Me : Yea, sure. What's my name?
Junior : Err, YI WAN. (han yu pin yin, "yi" the 4th )
Me : What?? Say it again..
Junior: Er..YI WAN ( with confidence )
Me : Hiazz..u go check the dictionary..i'll sign for u after u pronounce my name correctly
MUM!! Someone pronounced my name wrongly again!!
posted by -Val- on Monday, July 03, 2006
02 July, 2006
Samba Kick
Ole,Ole,Ole! Get your popcorn ready..
What could it be if it is not World Cup '06? It's the biggest global party ever. Football feva! It's time for guys having a hard time to choose between hanging out with girlfriend or watching football match. Hmm, hard to decide 'eh? Aikz, guys are like that, aren't they?
Oh btw, i'm not a football fan, mind u. I just don't get why people would like sweating in the hot sun just to chase a ball. Aiya, just go to another field and buy a ball to play lar,what for want to fight with each other for just a ball leh? Haiyo..Take my bro as an good example, yesterday he didn't went home. He went to VRJ to watch football match. He rather watch football than sleeping in houz?
For guys who doesn't like football, that's abnormal. There is only one condition where a guy will give up football, when his girlfriend gets mad. Hahaha, kinda funny lol. But we have to admit that some girls do enjoy football. Er, just like the Gol & Gincu series, the girls love futsall a lot. ( I'm a tv freak, i watch almost everything. )
For girls ler, we watch football to seek a good-looking guy. Well, i found one. Arne Friedrich, and he's my bf now. He's Germany's defender. Hehheheee..aiya just for fun oni ler. Some of my friends like Kaka, Ronaldinho. My friend told me that my bf, Arne Friedrich was given a yellow card during a match. ~!@#$% WHO DARE GIVE MY BF YELLOW CARD?? Harrr? Harrr??
Hehe, juz jk oni. U know the girl in "Gol & Gincu". She loves football becoz of his ex-bf. His ex- broke up with her becoz she doesn't love football and the guy was attracted by another girl who loves football. They chat the about same topic, football. I think it's crap for a girl to forced herself to love football. Again, cinta itu buta!
Football. Maybe i don't really understand what is it about. Basically it's about guys sweating just to chase a ball. Oh ya, not to forget. Some good-looking guys!!
( Hey juz jk lerr, I'm not that kind of girl lar. Just for fun.. )
For guys, sleep early and never ignore ur girlfriend if u have one.
For girls, look out at the handsome guys!!
It's time that the world gets together in unity and harmony. Football!
posted by -Val- on Sunday, July 02, 2006