31 August, 2006

The seminar

I reached there and I had quite "some time" before the Add Math session. Words and all the stuff just darted to my mind and I was aching to crap something. I keep on telling myself that not to think so much. "Val, kawal nafsu! U're not going to crap a thing until u finish ur SPM!" I don't know if I can hold this anymore..

Hiazz..Erm the seminar was really great! Cikgu Venn is a great teacher and he rox! I met Ika, she sat in front of me! Hehehe so happi! It's been quite a while since I last saw her. We talked about Language Studio stuff. Sir Andrew is doing really fine these days..everyone is fine. Kar Jin, Ivy, Allisa, Qistina..except me lorr. She asked me whether I'd be back after SPM. I don't know. I'm really lost these days with all the confusion in my mind. Maybe I'll just leave this to God lerr..

I read about something today. In da world of ours there is the desire for love. Life's greatest happiness is to be convinced that our friends, family and all of our love ones love us. Love is like a thread. It can hardly be seen anywhere or anytime but it's really there. We will never know what happiness a simple act of our kindness will bring about. We must appreciate our life and tell ourselves that " I'd never regret if I die tomorrow because today I've enjoyed my life to the fullest."Every second we live is a gift from God, for everyday we're alive is a special occasion.

- No act of kindess. However small, is a waster -

posted by -Val- on Thursday, August 31, 2006  
0 Thought(s)

30 August, 2006

Merdeka

The word MERDEKA to me is about humming "Keranamu Malaysia." The obvious thing that I love about merdeka is holiday!=P Haha..the other one is about having flags flying everywhere. (I'm not really patriotic lorr..hehe!) Hmm..i think Merdeka is about gaining our freedom, loving our country and a day ought to be a day of remembrance. Not to forget, holiday!

It's a time for reflections on triumphs and glories. The financial crisis, the trauma in 1969..etc. Merdeka is not merely about freedom but the struggle endured that makes it more meaningful. Basically this is just what I know cuz my history sucks. Hiazz..terrible one. I don't really like politics, ish~ beyond the understanding of a stupid gal like me. Hehe..

The diversity of people of different races and religions, the beauty of our land (pretty ar?), the splendor of different cultures, friends of different races. This is our country, Malaysia. Despite being multiracial, multilingual and multicultural, we are Malaysian! Malaysia Boleh~!

Happi Birthdae Malaysia!

posted by -Val- on Wednesday, August 30, 2006  
0 Thought(s)

26 August, 2006

Oh pls..

Hiazz..there's some knots in my stomach right now. My mum lorr bought durians from da night market..we all laugh like craze fella. Mum!! Next time examine the durians before u buy..ok? Huiyoo!*my stomach grumbles again* I remembered that Sir Andrew hates durian. Hey Sir Andrew, not bad mah? Hehe..=P

I finished the essay about the funeral thing. Hiazz..a terrible one. Too short already i think, but what can i do? Outta points ledi. I sort of like..um.."campur aduk" all the points. Terrible essay..arhh! It's just 5 paragraphs..so short? How? How? Hiazz..When i was writing about the funeral essay, somehow i feel numb. I don't know how to describe all "the stuff", u know? The stuffs.

God I feel really sorry for i'm stil living in confusion. All the stuff just darted to my mind in all sudden. Err..how to say ar? I'm so feeling so mixed right now. Now I'm no longer a freethinker because I embraced Buddhism. Actually I think lar, being a Christian or Buddhist, literally they are the same because Jesus/Buddha help us to be a better person. Forgive me if I'm wrong because I'm noob in all these.

In da houz, no one taught us about all this..umm complicated. Somehow I feel like falling apart. I wonder, is there any "sunday school" in the for Buddhism? For an elderly like me? I still remember stuffs about Christianity because I attended Sunday School since I was a lil gal. Hey wanna hear me sing? =P

When I recalled my past, I was really silly when I was a lil gal. Every night before I "went" to bed i'll pray to Jesus. My bed was a double-decked bed. (Till now..) I slept on the top and there's a ladder connecting to my bed. So every night I'll stand near the ladder and pray before I climb to bed. My mum was like.."Ah girl arr,Where got ppl like dat de? Before went to bed means before u sleep, if u stand there how other people walk?"

Haha..silly me. Hiazz, who I am right now? I don't know. Can anyone tell me? I think I'll probe the hidden answers after SPM. Feel really numb right now..dat's all for today larr. I've been blogging really often these days because I feel really bored in da houz. Actually I wanna "kacau" my frenz de but i just don't feel like disturbing the others because of trial exam. So all I could do is blog. Forgive me for all the stuffs i crapped during this whole week. May God bless everyone out there! God bless ya!

posted by -Val- on Saturday, August 26, 2006  
2 Thought(s)

Milo+Teh Tarik

Gosh it had been raining "milo+teh tarik" since 5pm. I risked my life (Oops not my life..my feet!) attending tuition classes. When I stepped out my dad's car I was like "Oh NO! My feet! YULKS!" Everywhere was flooded with Milo+Teh Tarik. Euukzz..yulks! I went in the class and start grumbing. (Checked! Val is back!) Hey not my fault lorr,I took a shower before i went to tuition and u can guess how was the feeling being dipped in Milo+Teh Tarik.

I wanna talk about a guy in my class. His name is Zafri. Umm..okay about this guy. I respect him fer some reasons lerr..hehee =) To be frank, he is proud of everything. He is a humorous guy i dare to say, everyone would say so. Today he talked about his tooth story which really intigues us. He's really funny lol. =P

To be honest lerr, I don't have the feeling or courage to talk about my past. (Hey I'm a good gal in my past lerr!) Maybe I just don't feel like talking about it..or maybe i'm bored about that topic already. Whenever people sees me and they'll talk about my braces. Pain or not ar? Stil got how long ar? How was it like? Can eat or not ar? How to take care ar? Why want to wear ar? (I'm kinda bored ledi lerr..)

Sir How came in kinda late today, becoz of the Milo+Teh Tarik lorr. Um..I accidently eye-caught something, if i'm not mistaken lerr. Hehezz..he forgot to close his car garage. -SHH!- Dun tell anyone or he'll kill me! Hahaha..so bad gal hor? I have been begging him to teach us about Bumi fer a long time ledi. Finally he gave up becoz of me "Okok! Minggu depan saya ajar. Haiyo tak tahan lagi.." Hahaha..thanx Sir How! You are the best! Haha..

"The hardest battle you're ever going to fight is the battle to be just you". I think that we as human being in our natural state accept everything about ourselves. This acceptence creates the most wonderful feeling of all. Hehehe..Val is back ledi lorr! =)

posted by -Val- on Saturday, August 26, 2006  
0 Thought(s)

25 August, 2006

Maafkan Wan..

Sorry everyone fer being a wierdo these days. My frenz they said that i looked damn pale since the first day of the holiday. Did i? Got arr? They asked me whether i'm sick. Hiazz..izzit true? This time i'm going to blog in Malay, my first time bloggin' in Malay. Dunno how it'll sounds like..maybe wierd lerr. Hehe..i dun think got ppl will understand what i crap here..hehe =)

Kebelakangan ni Wan (me lor!) kuat mrajuk. Bukan sbb "balak" atau ape..sbb Wan tak tahan dgn kebosanan. Entahlah, Wan tak rse sedap hati aje..terlalu stress kot? Wan ni memang "KECOH" dlm kls ttp kebelakangan ni Wan x ckp ape-ape. Mungkin sbb Wan dah jatuh sakit spjg cuti ni..Maafkan Wan.

Terima Kasih korang krn teman Wan spjg cuti ni, eehh rase terhutang budi..jgn terase tau~! Hehe..=) Hey pasal seminar tu, Wan dah lama pikir(fikir), Wan akan pegi seminar tu. Kalau korang tukar pikiran(fikiran), beritau Wan ya..bolehlah kita rayakan Merdeka sama-sama kan?

Wan janji. Janji Wan takkan mrajuk lagi..Wan yg kecoh dah pulang. (Hehe..siap korang nanti!) Ini kali terakhir Wan mgamuk. Maafkan Wan ya..

To everyone out there, I'm sorry. Val is back now..she'll quit poem-ing fer a while for she promised that she'll never had a bad day/days anymore. Please feel free to wake her up by splashing her some water (not urine larr) whenever she acts 'wierd' again. Haha..^_^

May God bless everyone out there!

posted by -Val- on Friday, August 25, 2006  
1 Thought(s)

22 August, 2006

Left Unspoken

Through the mystic veil
Through the empty page
Sadness beyond recognition
She drifted herself to the space

Emptiness
Her heart desires with glistening eyes
Her eyes disdain with sorrow
Inwardly this pain is ripping her apart
No one would know
The story of her woes

She tried to be a good person
She tried to be a helping hand
She tried to be the best she could be
The howling wind silenced her weeps
Alone she was left to face the consequences

In this solitary world
Her prayers was left unspeakable
Notes echoed her with enspoken words
Hovering in pain and agony

posted by -Val- on Tuesday, August 22, 2006  
1 Thought(s)

20 August, 2006

A break?

I think i recovered a bit already after some sleep. I woke up this morning and i told myself that it's going to be a great day! Always start a day with a smile and everything will be blessed. I know lerr, exam coming and blaa blaa blaaa. Study..maximize ur holiday with revisions..dun relax liao! Yaya i know...

My bro went to the bookstore today. Shud i go with him? It's been quite a while since the last time i read a book. I mean a book, not reference book larr. Cherr..haha. I don't know..i can't stand the temptation. Hey Val, u should revise your studies instead of reading fiction books. Say NO to all of them..u're not going to read one until u finish ur SPM. *Sobzz*

Somehow i feel really empty..these days. I wish i could go fer a walk, a movie perhaps. My bro, he is enjoying his college life going fer high-tea with frenz, movie, vacation, shopping..etc. I wish i could be like him. I'm going to break apart because of tiring studies. The saying goes "Study hard fer this few months and u'll be free after the exam". No avail. I'm stil being "slumber" all the time. (Haiya forget about it lah)

Ohh ya! Hiazz~I have an essay to write. Description about a wedding or funeral. Oh no,not wedding again, i'm really outta inspiration. I think i'll write about a funeral. What should i write about funeral? (Damn! Tears welled my eyes) Hey Miss CSL, why this topic? Why? I don't feel like writing about this...

- Death is something that happens to every living thing -
- It is an omnipresent part of life -

posted by -Val- on Sunday, August 20, 2006  
0 Thought(s)

19 August, 2006

The farewell bid

Is this a beginning or is this the end of the play? Will we meet again or is this the last farewell bid? Nobody knows. God knows. I'm sick since yesterday and it's getting worse after the party. Now i'm suffering with sore-throat and flu. Hey this is a good news arr cuz i have a great excuse fer me to take a break from studies! Hehe..

The party went really well today. Well-done to everyone! I couldn't believe my eyes that our junior could dance so well. (ok larr not too bad lerr =P) I love hip-hop and break dance so fer me the best part of the programme is the dance. Oh yea, I met my seniors too. God, they looked so gorgeous! Don't know why i always feel so happy about gathering stuff. I missed u all so much!!

Today is my lil "bro's" birthdae. Sorry lerr i overslept yesterday..hehex! Sorry fer 15 minutes late but i hope that u'll have a blessed birthdae and hope that u'll be happy always! So after the party we went fer tea at a coffee shop near KFC. A new record fer me cuz i WALKED in my own feet to KFC! Hehee..I'm not really used to walk fer long distance. We had a great time there gossiping and talking crap. Hehee..sorry tauke fer being so noisy. =P

Hey Eric, dun say that i'm worry about u lar. Cherr..( I also dun wan to care about u!!=P) We are just merely 17 and about the patrolling thing, it's really dangerous u know. I don't meant to offend but please becareful when u are on duty. The world of ours is no longer a safe place to live in anymore because of the crimes. Do whatever u think is right but don't risk your life. May god bless you always. Take Care!

LPS ROX!! LOVE YA ALL!

posted by -Val- on Saturday, August 19, 2006  
0 Thought(s)

18 August, 2006

End of The Play

Tomorrow will be the last day of the play. My feeling right now, mixed. Over the years we strived through the good and bad days just fer this moment. A moment we once said that it will be a great day, our farewell party. But now, i dun feel like i having farewell party anymore.

A coincidence in our life brought us together. We came to form a gang who stayed true. A team made of a hearts of grace and souls penetrated with love. We weeped, we gossiped, we cheered, we did everything holding on together. We came across problems but at the end we solved the problems as a team. We will cherish the memories we shared and it'll forever engraved in our heart. Nothing in this world, nothing shalt loosen our friendship.

I hope that tomorrow will never come cuz i don't wanna bid goodbye. I love you guys! Tomorrow will be our last play, let's make this a great moment forever engraved in our memories.

posted by -Val- on Friday, August 18, 2006  
1 Thought(s)

13 August, 2006

Evaluation, where art thou?

Today I read about an article and it gave me a harsh hit. I dun feel like writing a poem coz i've already written about the duckling a few months ago. In person, I feel that it's a harsh one but izzit works for boys too? I dunno..

When the euphoria of being praised and admired is in the space, who cares about the knockouts? Why there is discrimination? Is exterior important? I mean, who doesn't like good-looking gals/boys? We often wish that we were Paris Hilton or maybe an idealised model.

I think looks are capricious, we don't know what lays behind the mask. Good-looking peole get special treatments and attentions while as for the others, they always being haunted by cruel criticsm. We always wish that we are blessed with good-lookings but unfortunately we aren't. Sometime we blamed everyone for our predicament, even the God. ( I dun think "predicament" is the right word to descibe..)

Demure, gentle, sweet, cute, docile. We use all these words to describe the so called "angels". This implies that people wearing braces (like me lar) is none of them but a monster. People identify us by just merely looks and some even vote to decide who is the belle.

No offence to anyone or me, just my thoughts about that article, "Low Fat and Happy". Look is just an image. If we judge by what we see and not by what we feel, soon or later we will realize and cry. Life is too short to care what the other thinks about us, as long as we are happy with ourselves and it's already sufficient.

- Beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder -

posted by -Val- on Sunday, August 13, 2006  
2 Thought(s)

12 August, 2006

An Essay fer Daddy

We were told to write an essay about a person that we respect the most. (Note: attaching a photo of that person from head to toe.) Whaaat? Head to toe? What if i got oni half? I went home and seek fer a photo from head to toe. Oh yalorr hor, my bro!

"Gor gor arr, can i hav one of ur pic, from head to toe?"
"Siao arr u? "
"Aiya give me larr i want to write an essay..pls"
"Haiya u dun kacau me lar.."

Cherr!! Sobzz..My plan was to attach the photo he captured at Pulau Redang. The naked one with swiming pants. Hahahaa, i wonder how will Miss CSL react if i attached dat pic? ( Fine lorr, bro i also dun wan ur pic.=P) So my final choice is..*ta-da* my DAD!!

Next step, describing my dad from head to toe. Head to toe?! Haiyoo..i'll just write "My dad has a Jacky Chan's face" Simple and perfect! Hehe..see i'm so clever. Hey just joking larr, how dare i? Hehehe..but writing the describing part is a difficult one.

This essay takes me a few hours u know! Haha..Dad this essay is for you! My dad, err..dunno how to describle him lerr. A big guy with big tummy, holds great fatherly qualities in him. He is the person that I respect the most, of cuz stil got my mum lar. (Mummy, dun get jealous ok?) Honestly my dad is really a great person! He may seems a bit blurr sometimes but when it comes to working part, he is likely transforming to another person.

I'm so impressed how he overwhelmed the obstacles. He loves us more than himself, haha silly father. But i like him!! Love ya always DAD!

posted by -Val- on Saturday, August 12, 2006  
0 Thought(s)

06 August, 2006

Childhood Memoirs

Fate
It works in mysterious ways
I hadn't been expecting
The voice I heard from behind me

This is a day of heartwarming joy
Sweet memories unfurled
Smiles drift from face to face

As the years passed we grow apart
Cherishing those moments
Thinking of those times
The pleasures of those childhood days
Over the years we have shared so much
We shed our laughter and tears
Through good and bad days

Childhood fantasies
Lay dormant in our minds and faded into hazes
We're moving on in our lives
Silently we vowed
Things changed but not our friendship
The world collapsed but not our friendship
FRIENDS FOREVER is our promise!

posted by -Val- on Sunday, August 06, 2006  
0 Thought(s)

A Coincidence

My perfect Sunday. I woke up at 6.00am this morning. Feeling drowsy i prepared myself becuz Yu's parent will come and fetch both of us to attend a seminar at KDU. Everyone was having breakfast at the canteen so both of us went to the hall.

Hmm..not much place left. So we found a place fer both of us. And i looked at the chair beside me. The "owner" seems to be a boy. A while later the "owner" came back to the seat..it was SUSAN!! (Susu) We were so surprised to see each other. Although she stays near my houz but i haven't seen her fer a long time already. What a coincidence! We met each other the crowd and she sits besides me!!

I also met my classmates, a gang of them and all the frenz from Chong Hwa. The greatest of all is meeting my primary skol frenz. I meet Yin Qian, William and there are more. I can't list all of them down here..hehe..sorri. But i'm so happi to meet all of you. =)

Meeting them is likely feeling "Home Sweet Home", back to mummy's side. I feel so great today! Years ago I came to Chong Hwa feeling lonely. There were oni a few of us from Lai Meng. All of the Lai Mengzz gathered again once in a while, sometime once in a year. I missed them a lot!! Hey..Lai Mengzz ROXX!! Love you all!!

For me, the greatest thing of all is not about the seminar, is about the reunion. This is the greatest feeling of all! I'm extremely happy today, thank you God fer bringing us together. Hehe..I'm going to crap a poem again. Feel so great today! Thanx guys!

It may not be a perfect Sunday fer me to sleep until noon as usual, but it had been a great day!

posted by -Val- on Sunday, August 06, 2006  
0 Thought(s)

03 August, 2006

Raining Tears

She shivered
The rain soaked her skin
Glints of teardrops
Filled her eyes

The rainy clouds cluster all over up in the air
The trees flatter enthusiastically with the blowing wind
The rain will never wipe away
Her pain nor tears

A crystal sound of the piano
Her fingers pulled melancholy notes together
She enslaves herself to the sonata
The notes penetrated her soul
Sentimental notes filled her
Leading her to the broken heart

The rain gently hits the window
Tapping out a rhythmic tempo
Eventually she is going to break
Fading away with an empty heart

posted by -Val- on Thursday, August 03, 2006  
1 Thought(s)

02 August, 2006

Being Stupid

3 tiring days. I hardly study for the monthly test. -SIGH- The seminars last weekend, the tuitions..i don't know how i did my exams. Something for sure, terrible!! When i came home, it's already late and "puff" i was snoring in bed till next morning.

No studies, no exercise..oh gosh!! This is the first time in my life i did not study for exam. I cried again. I credited "Akaun Bank" in my Account test. Oh god!! God!! I was doing quite well at first in hope that i'll score more marks to cover up the other subjects. I don't know..what went wrong to me these days. Being the stupid one..

Look at the calender, how many days remain till SPM. I wish i could make my mum and dad proud of me. I'm a good for nothing girl. No one ever praise me for everything i did. No one appreciate what i did and i'm such a trouble-maker. Being a kecoh person, i have nothing but my name.

I need fresh air, and a walk. This life is driving me crazy..

posted by -Val- on Wednesday, August 02, 2006  
0 Thought(s)